Closure

So I've finally made closure regarding her.

My closure exist upon the fact the end, regardless os what a person has done to me, I can still do the right thing towards them.

So I decided to apologize for anything that I did wrong and tell her that I don't hate her or even dislike her. We go our seperate ways but I don't want all these negative feelings surroudnings us and what happeneed.

She then responds saying she hates me for being condescending towards her and that I never listen to her. Great reasons for hating someone but I'm condescending when she gets out of her place cocky like she knows it all. And I never listen to her? I always listen to her and undertand what she is saying.

Now that I look back, it was really her from the start. For one she is completely out of touch with her feelings. That is why she use to cut herself when she was younger. Her mom said she holds feelings in, her dad is passive aggressive her austic, i'm not sure what the story is with her mom, she had no friends has a childhood, is classified as a manic depressed, exhbits a ton of passive aggressive traits. My brother said I should have seen the writing on the wall a LONG time ago. I guess he was right.

About any feelings, she is in denail about them. Like she say she will have no feelings but the send me a card saying how much she loves me. She will hang out with me before way more than she does with her normal friends and tell her deepest secrets. On the flip side,at the end she couldn't even bare to talk to me and then months later comes out that she hates me. Basically she can't admit to a feeling, or doesn't want to feel it so she feels nothing as she stated in her last message "i hated you in the beginning and then it was just like...forget it. how can i hate him. i just dont care about him."

Instead of admitting to an emotion, it becomes indifference. A lot of her past shows she can't handle emotions, something is deeply wrong with her.

So in our last conversation ever, she was pinpointed on some of the things she did and behaviours and as usual side step all of them. She immature, very naive, and lacks a lot of experience.

So my closure exist in the fact that I could be a better person than her, the bigger person. Satification in how she is in denail everything and accepts only the truth she wants to here. And glad that she really is gone for good this time because I cut all ways back to me. I actualy made her do it, playing on her character even though she has yet to realize it.

There is also another truth she will never realize, in how bad she was tricked in the past. How I will not say and I will never have too because she will never ask. I know here all to well.

So now that all my thoughts are out of me, I feel better, and even better that I will be more succusful and have a happier and more promising life than her. In the end, she will always be nobody. I have to stop comparing myself to her because she is way beneath me to be doing that. There is nothing to look up to her about. I don't follow the weak, they follow me.