Two

What have I gotten myself into.

I can't do this two girl thing, one of them has to go. And I can't let my past experiences with Ginger cloud the way I think of believing every girl is cold hearted and I shouldn't care how I treat them. They haven't done anything wrong.

And things bring me back to the idea of how people effect each other. I tend to fall between that I shouldn't care about women and their feelings because someday they will hurt me and won't care. Like Ginger who didn't really have moral or guidelines on how to treat people and understanding them. And when I try to make things right in the end, she still can't do the right thing. So I feel like thats everyone women and why should I care?

On the flip side I know they did nothing to deserve it, and being cruel to them would be out of place/character for me. On top of that I strive to better than people who affect me negatively like Ginger. Upholding my morals and ethics is something I try to do, even if I won't get what I want in the end.

But when the time comes, I'll make a choice and try my best to do right by both parties, not just myself.