Anger

Anger is complexed phenominuam that should be studied extensively to better understand ourselves.

So I'm going to start with myself. If I don't know you, I really don't care what you think. And if your not an important person in my life, same holds true, but not as heavy. So basically strangers can't make me angry unless they directly impede me in some way. So that leaves people I care about and useless destruction.

People I care about are really the only people who can make me angry. They can not give me something I want, say something they shouldn't have, mess up my whole day. But I rarely get really mad at them, mostly if they do stuff to me, its bothersome, not anger. For example, dad you can drop Sherie off at dance, why do I have to do it? Its bothersome when he can but he says I need to help out and I say fine and I do it. Now if he did that like everyday too me, in which he didn't, then that would make me angry. My mom makes me angry with her way of thinking and the lack of effort she does, and when she blames my dad for stuff thats not his fault. Like how she blames him at times for her not being able to keep a job and when she hounds me for money but won't go get a job herself. It was kinda funny when we got into a fight over winter and she said, "fine if your gonna be like that, I'm not gonna give you any money" and I said"mom, i give u my money". And my brother and I get mad at my mom and dad for their lack of support sometimes. They need to be involved more in their kids lives. Ginger makes me mad when she just seems to completely forget about me and seems uncaring. So basically from my loved one that makes me mad is 1) when they do stupid things that negatively affects myself or them, bc I care about them 2) do things that are uncaring or unsupportive towards me 3) and blame me for shit I dont do (partically parents).

The other thing that makes me made is how people mistreat animals and the enviroment. I'm a naturalist and I have more respect for animals than people. Why? I don't see wolves bombing other people, parrots robbing people in the street, donkeys making people homeless, etc etc etc. I could go on forever witht that but basically animals don't do the fucked up things people do. There was once a quote that said "If there is truly evil in this world this world, it exist in the hearts of mankind". And I think that is true. I never heard of a group of apes putting other apes in concentration camps. So basically I hate when people mistreat animals, especially when they take in animals, aren't responsible for it, don't know how to care for it or train and it, and end up abusing it. The best examples it dogs. People take in dogs, and don't know how to train it for the potty except by beating it. So they beat it and abuse the dog,keep it locked in a cage all day. I HATE THAT. And wat really pisses me off is the people can beat the crap out of animals. But if animal attacks a person, they are put to sleep. That is something that really pissed me off. I've never gotten in an argument with my dog, and if I did, I would commit myself into a mental instituion. But an animal as never hurt me physical or mentally, or has tried to malicousy do something to me. So can u honestly hate me for liking animals better than people? They day a group of rats start a war over oil is the day this will change.

But now I'm on too how I get angry. Some people just get angry right away at a person, they explode on the spot. For me, things build up. I notice when I get mad at Ginger or my mom, it seems like something trivial and small, like her not asking how was my track meet or my mom asking me to help her send an email. Buts its like this. For Ginger, it would be the 10 small things she forget before to say or do. For my mom, its calling me every five minutes to help her out with the computer bc she is to lazy to figure it out herself. Its never the first time she forgets to say happy valentines day back to show she cares or my mom asking for help with the printer. Its when it happens over and over and over again in a short period of time that makes me angry. For me everything is just build up. Maybe I should get angry different. I should lightly just get on the small things so its not a big deal insteand of waiting. That way I don't blow up at the person and lay out the 20 other things they did before. Confront them when its little so I'm really not angry, just a lil bothered, so it doesnt turn into a big thing. Because my mom asking me for help on how to save a word document or ginger not sending me a card she said she was going to isn't a big deal, I don't get mad at that, its just the build up with all the other small things. So I'm gonna work on not letting it get that far.

Thats what I'm gonna do for now it. Just bring the small things to their attention so it doesn't turn into something big.