School is Going to SHit

I have to much on my plate right now.

First its my job. I need a job to make money. My parents barely support me finincially. I thought it was funny when my mom and dad said" if you don't do this, I won't give you money to go out!" and I just laughed and said "whens the last time I asked you guys for money?" bc I think it has been two years since i really asked them for money. I've been paying my own bills. But I work 18 hours a week in school, and thats a lot honestly. And I'm tired of working, it takes away time socially for me. I want to do things like join the chess club and anime club. I miss playing chess. I us to be an champion when I was younger, coming in 2nd and third in chest tournaments. I WAS DAMN GOOD!!! HAHA, I guess no one can really call me dumb. So I'm think about cutting back my hours to 14 so I can have a social life. I have enough money to pay my bills now so its all good :).

Track is another thing taking up a lot of my time. I have practice for 3 hours each day. 3 hours is a lot ofo time. I am getting better thou and I can't wait to compete in Spring. I'm not even mad about being cut on the team for someone who is obviously worse than me. I'm not mad at him at all, never was, it wasn't his choice. So other people shouldn't be mad at him either. IT WASN"T HIS CHOICE PEOPLE! I also have a since of pride for running by myself and a different reason for running. I don't run for scholarship or team anymore. I run what I want to run and my goal is to win. And I am going to try my best because I am paying for it. Maybe this was the motivation I needed to keep going with track, a reason to run other than scholarship. And I do feel better about running now. Thats probably why I keep getting better. I have a better reason for running that the people on the team. I'm not sure how I will react when my coach puts me back on the team in spring. Will I really care? But Still, track takes up so much of my time its not even funny. I have to cook my own food after track to eat which takes time. When combined with work, it is such a rough schedule, I mean really rough, but hey I survive.

And then there is m major, computer science. I think computer science has to be one of the toughest majors in the entire school. Outside of class, I can easily spend three to six hours on a porgraming project. EASILY! And Sitll not como eup with an satisfactory answer. Why are all teh other black people things like creative writing majors, or physical education majors. I mean, there is only one other black kid majoring in computer. I don't think any are in math. Its like I; the stupid black person who chose the hardest major. Haha. But computer science is rewarding because it makes you think. It makes you a dynamic thinker about everything. And if you like using ur mind, in which I do, it can be really fun at times but at the same time so frustrating.

But the worst thing is Japanese class. I swear this bitch is crazy. Excuse my french. She acts like people don't do anything else but study and for her class too. I swear, for a 102 class she assigns as much work as a 300 level class. I don't no what is wrong with her. Do all Japanese have the simple philohpsy the more you work the more you learn?? which is so untrue?

Well with all that combined it, just becomes a lot of work and I can't keep it up for much longer. Something has to be droped.