Talking

Talking does wonders for me and her when we talk.

We get into heated arguements and end on good terms. I swear, if we were having sex, it would go from an arguement to good angry sex. :)

But I feel good about her thou. Everyone else I've talked to, they no longer talk to their first love, high school girlfriend, college boyfriend. But me and her, we've made it throught the worst of time.

I remember when we were at each other throats, and I said some pretty nasty tough and could have done some pretty nasty stuff, but in the end, I couldn't do. I really had no desire to actually hurt her or ruin her social lifein school or w/e, I was just angry and wanted her to care and stop being a....for lack of better word...bitch towards me.

So now here we are, 2 years in the making. Not going out but not exactly just friends. I would go out with her if she wanted it, i don't mind, i can deal with the distance but thats not wat she wants. So I'm hoping for the summer. She'll only be gone for 3 weeks and i can definetely deal with that. Where is my bottle of lotion. j/k.

But just the way were are now is really saying something. I've never been closer with anyone else, no one knows me inside and out like she does. I actually do hope to marry her someday, but not today.

I'm glad I have her thou. Without her I would be a totally different person. Being loved and returning it is such a good feeling. Without love, I would be a pretty heartless person. Like those guys/girls who abuse and hurt other people and really don't give a damn about it. I can name quite a few who don't care a lick for anyone else. Porcha is the worst, she admits she be pretending to like guys just for the money and then robs them blind.

But I have a someone who keeps me from being like that, and it feels good.