Impassiveness

I can still feel it slowly just becoming me, and I'm more and more accepting too.

At work, and a few other times, I was thinking to myself that I missed that feeling of only caring for myself. It was easier having no one else has my responsbility. I had nothing holding me back, I could walk right over people with out a care, justification wasn't even needed. Everything was Darwinism, survival of the fittest.

I think I was happier alone. I was also stronger, maybe even smarter. Probably not smarter because I learn through other people. But I might have been stronger and happier alone, and I don't know why. Should I go back to that?

Anyway, the thought was just crossing my mind today, and I began wondering do I really want to care for anyone else? What should I be like?

Right now there is no one else I feel that I can honestly talk to about this. Another question with no obvious answer. Sounds like a challenge.